Sunday, August 17
I think I've never been so low in my life.
I've thought I should be at the pinnacle of my life, at year 4 of my university days, going with the flow, doing the things I want to do.
It's kind of eating me from the inside, and it's painful. It hurts a lot, that kind of aching pain that grinds your heart. But I'm trying to carry on with my life, pretending that nothing is wrong, and keep smiling and laughing. Trying really hard not to break down and cry.
But right now I just can't find the reason for me to go on. Probably one day when I look back and see, this period of my life may seem childish and ridiculous and I'll laugh at myself for being so down. But right here and now, I just want to cry. I want to tell my mum to stop screaming at me, want to start my FYP, want to start earning money.
I just want to break free.
Posted by Isabelle at 11:19 pm